Almost a year has passed! All of my kids born last year are turning one, these Girl Scouts just keep up-and-growing on me, and sometimes I feel like I'm just stuck in the same spot. I've made some moves (got a new (better paying) job, My travel time has increased, but as there's virtually no take home, I can literally relax at the end of the day or weekend and not think about anything left behind.
Also, because the job is so much farther away, I'll soon be completing my last year as a girl scout leader. It's been a fun run (7 years!), but I have one original girl left - who will be in my life forever! And as the kids get older, they change. They talk back... they don't listen....They stop coming to meetings. I feel as if by making our Service Unit Larger ( we went from approx 40 girls registered to over 100) we've taken out the closeness of the meetings. I miss sitting in the big cafeteria with my 7 girls trying to decide what our next trip should be, or what badge we should work on. Now my Monday Nights are filled with my 15 Juniors, 18 Brownies at another table, and a third table with about 12 Daisies! And my Original Girl? She's moved to Wednesday Nights, where I have another girl who's been with me for almost 6 years, but she's boy-crazy (at 12) and I don't see her coming much longer. The other Wednesday girls are more aggressive than my easy-going baby, and I feel for her, trying to fit in with her awkward social skills. (She's a sweet girl, she just doesn't know when to fall back) and everytime we go somewhere, I watch her trying to force herself in with this group of girls who are so solidly bonded and my heart breaks. So I've decided to make the decision for her.
I've decided that I am no longer going to bring someone else's child into a situation where they are not wanted. I have decided that I will work with her on the side if she wants to continue; but if not, I will be doing my own version of Big Brothers/Big Sisters and pick her up on the weekend and take her someplace.
She's my baby, ya know?
